Reasons I have not found sleep

growing fears up tall like a mountain sapling. digging up dirt.

recipe for tears: bedsheets and secrets

too much time tracing the outline of a spent heart.

I almost dream of an amusement park. I almost dream your questions.

my dog puked grass up on the living room floor. At 3:31am.

then my toilet clogged.

I am going to watch a movie instead.

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